I decided to put a post up last minute today because I just realised that while I don’t really care that it is the last day of the year or decade, it might be a nice subtle nod to time to do one last post, and make it 43 posts in total in 2019.
In 2019 I went through some very tough things that most people go through, but obviously since I am experiencing them for the first time, they still meant something to me and still shaped my personality.
I didn’t very much enjoy this year, and that is sad, because I ought to have. I had a baby and he really is the love of my life, and by rights this ought to have been the best year of my life. But it wasn’t. I struggled a lot with my mental state, and felt depressed very often. I had to relearn so many things, and reach for strength in places deep within me that I didn’t know existed.
I experienced severe frustration, betrayal, selfishness, both on my part and on the part of others, and learnt so so much. I fell in love so hard, with the chubbiest cherub ever, but still, it was one of the hardest years of my life and I am glad this year is an odd number and am glad to leave it.
There.
I hope 2019 was good for all of you, and I hope 2020 is even better.
Definitely wishing you happiness and peace in 2020.
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Thank you so much Jovina. Wishing you happiness and peace also in 2020 🙂
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Wishing you a much happier year. Settling in to motherhood is TOUGH! I was awful at it. But love can take you a long way.
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You’re so right, it can take you very far. Thank you for your kind and supporting words 🙂 Wishing you all the best for the next year!
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Sending hugs.
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❤️
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You are every new mom everywhere so don’t put yourself down. It’s the craziest job you’ll ever have, the most draining in every way and the most rewarding. I suspect you’re doing about a hundred times better than you think you are. Lots of love.
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Thank you for your beautiful words! It’s reassuring to be told that. I know millions of mums around the world are going through this now and have went through it before, and you’re so right. It’s the most intense thing ever! I see beautiful pictures on social media of mothers and their babies and captions saying things like they’ve had the best year and their baby made their lives 1 million times better and all the positivity and I feel bad that I don’t feel as positive, but have to remind myself that it’s all props and makeup and they are likely melting down in the background too haha.
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Here’s to happiness and love in 2020 OB. Wellness to you and that cherub 🙂
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Thank you so much, Colleen! Wishing you all the best for 2020 🙂
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I hear your pain, yet thanks for sharing. Hoping 2020 is much better for you. Take charge of yourself because you are important! Happy New Year, Lenora!
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Thank you for your thoughtful words, Frank. Happy New Year!
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Wishing you a much happier, healthier, bountiful and peaceful new year, Lenora. My 2019 was not that much fun either, so I’m sending out the good vibes for both of us. ❤
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Thank you so much Diana, your words are so appreciated. I am sad that your 2019 was not so fun either, I am sending out those good vibes for us too 🙂
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