You have to be in a kind of mood for writing, and for working out, and for doing anything remotely productive and worthwhile.
That’s what I used to think.
Now I know you have to show up, even when you don’t feel like it.
Show up every single time your child cries in the night, and they will have a healthy attachment with you.
Show up every session at the gym, or move your body every day, even when you don’t feel like it, and your cardiovascular health will excel.
Show up everyday and write, if you want to be a writer.
Show up for yourself, and you will reap the benefits. Nobody else.
One of my favourite quotes is this:
Write a million words, the absolute best you can write – then throw it all away and bravely turn your back on what you have written. At that point, you’re ready to begin.David Eddings
I have had to show up these past three years. I have had to show up for my kids, at the expense of myself. I have had to show up regardless of how I felt, how ill I was, whether I had brushed my teeth or not.
And because I have had to do that, I have had to take a good long look at any hours I had free, and fill them with things which made me a better person.
A stronger person.
A person I wanted to be.
I don’t know what this means except maybe that I am growing up.